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My Secret Pregnancy

I have little memories of my babies conception. I don't know when I will give birth and I don't know where I will be when that does happen. I know who the possible fathers are and I must be around them knowing what they did meanwhile claiming a label to keep them safe because as long as I am fat and crazy, I am not pregnant and in danger. I know what's going on inside of me because I feel them everyday. My biggest fear is that after knowing of their existence they will be taken away from my womb the minute I fall asleep. That is what happened last time. I do not want to mourn their loss, a loss nobody believed to have even occurred. You see the thing about losing my credibility is that I can hide in plain sight which means that anyone who sees my belly will automatically think I am fat and not even take a minute to consider the other option because they know my history. My medical history deals with doctors claiming that the truth does not exist because they believe their reports rather than the patient, me. What those doctors do not understand is that monthly decidual bleeding alter a pregnancy test because of misplaced hormones. How can I be sure? I know because I have been fat before and this is an entirely new experience of obesity. I know the difference and I no longer care how my decision to keep them safe will hurt those who claim to love me the most. All I care about is keeping them inside me until their time is here and that means keeping the joy of new lives completely to myself. I may not like that but that is how my life is right now. But only for now is my life like this because I know without a shadow of a doubt that My Secret Pregnancy can't be a secret for long.

Starrchild

Will she be okay?

My fiance and I had been trying to conceive for 3 months and I decided to take a test to see if I was pregnant. When I took the test it said 'Pregnant - 4 weeks +' and I was delighted. I wanted to make sure so I took two more and they were all positive.

When my fiance got home I jumped on him and told him. He was the happiest man alive and he was so excited! When I was at my first appointment we decided not to find out the gender. We wanted a surprise. All that mattered was that the baby was healthy.

So let's skip to the birth. I was just 8 months when my contractions started. I was rushed to hospital and the doctors said they wanted to delay the birth but just as they made that decision my waters broke - there was no going back now!

The birth was very slowly - and the baby was breech so it would be dangerous for me and the baby. I was rushed into theatre where I had an emergency C - Section. It was a girl - but she wasn't crying. She was silent. Without even getting to see her she was rushed off to emergency care.

When I had slightly recovered from the C - Section I was allowed to see my daughter - who had no name at this point. She was smaller than an average sized baby and she had wires going round her nose. It broke my heart that my baby girl was so sick and there wasn't anything I could do about it. I would've done anything to trade places with her.

After a week or so the doctors came back with fantastic news. She was doing much better and she could breathe on her own for short periods of time without a machine. That was when I first held my daughter. She felt so small in my hands and so delicate.

After a month or so she was well enough to come home - making monthly visits to the hospital. She's 3 now and I'm 26. Just 3 weeks ago the doctors told us some amazing news - she had totally recovered. She has had 4 operations done on her but now she is a healthy, playful and very happy little girl! We called her Sydney Madison Lovett (my husband's last name but I kept my maiden name).

Taylor Reid

Sweet Surprise

I was 21 when i had my 1st miscarriage. I was one that wanted a baby in the worst way. I tried every possible avenue without seeking a doctor for help. I had went on birth control because i had read somewhere that you became extremely fertile once you were off of it. By the time i had reached the age of 29 i had expierienced 7 miscarrages. All of which i lost within the first trimester. I had lost # 7 in february of 2004. I became very familiar with what my body went through to recoop. So i knew i would still have some pregnancy symptoms. By December of 2004 i kept having these wierd feelings (Keep in mind i was a plus sized girl so i could hide a pregnancy...even from myself.) at night when i would lay down to sleep i would feel like someone was lightly tapping me from the inside. So, i went to seek out the guidance from a close friend who also was pregnant to ask what it felt like when the baby moved. she explained to me the best she could with a puzzled look. i told her that i might be pregnant. The following day she took me down to the local medical clinic to have a test done on me. and sure enough I was pregnant....Again. I was not getting my hopes up to high but i had never reached a point before where i could feel the baby move so i knew i had passed the first trimester. so we calculated back to the last boyfriend i had and made the assumtion of about 4 months along. which for me was extremely exciting. In january i went for my first ultrasound ever with a live baby inside....well i was further along then i thought. my due date went from may to march in one quick moment. What had happened was right after my last miscarriage i got pregnant shortly after during the last month before i was to renew my depo shot. On March 7, 2005 i gave birth to a very special little boy who i call Kordell. He is the child i never thought i would have and love every minute of being a parent to him. I hope that if any of you out there have never been able to successfully carry a child dont give up. If it is meant to be it will happen. I truely believe that.

Heather Lousignont

He wouldnt have stayed.

His name was Sleepy. My name is Nena. I was still jst in middle schoo whn we met. To make a long story short after about 1 month of being together I decided I wanted him to take my virginity. I did not think abt da risks. My period was late & changes were happening to my body. I did a lot of research abt pregnancy & I was feeling all the symptoms. I took abt 3 tests & the first one came up negative but da last 2 were positive. At first he said he was gnna stay but thn he ended up breaking up with me. I swore I was prego. My period arrived late. It wsnt like a normal period tho it was only 1 day long & very light. I didnt end up being prego but I imagine if I wld have been I wld have been a super young teen mom with a 1 year old baby by now. Im fourteen years old & God gave me a blessing by not letting me get prego cuz i can imagine my life wld have been a lot more difficult. I called Sleepy the day i got my period. We nevr ended up getting back together, & whn he did think i was pregnant all he told me to do was to get a ABORTION! -.- Guys can be heartless. I do want a little angel one day, but for all of u young girls, I kno now u maybe want a baby cuz u think u have da PERFECT guy/ vato. Its not like tht. Sleepy took advantage of me & im lucky i didnt get prego. Sometimes I wonder if i miscarried at a very early stage of da pregnancy, cuz i literaly was feeling all da symptoms. Anyways a baby wnt make him stay. Ive had plenty of pregnancy scares & trust me it isnt fun. Im enjoying my youth as a Latina teen. Guys will do whtever they can to get some frm u. Dnt think sex is ok cuz ur wearing a condom, & birth control has a lot of side affects like mood swings, weight gain, etc. Jst be young, & if ur boyfriend really loves u he will wait to have sex with u.

Cheree

My Greatest Blessing

I found out I was pregnant on November 29th 2010 I was 19 years old. My boyfriend and I broke up the day before he was sitting with me in the doctors office all we could do was laugh because it would happen to us. We have been together off and on since I was 14 and he was 18. At 11 weeks I woke up with terrible stomach aches and bleeding my parents and the child's father rushed me to the ER and couldn't find the cause of the bleeding which stopped not long after we got to the hospital they did and ultrasound the baby was alive and had a very strong heartbeat. I was told to go to my OB the very next day and she did lots of test and ultrasounds but couldn't find what caused the problem but put me on bed rest for the time being. 2 weeks later I started bleeding and getting stomach aches and I went to the ER and got sent to my OB's office. They found out I had low amniotic fluid and placental abruption. It was great to have answers and know the cause of my problem. I was told I had to be on bed rest for the remaining of my pregnancy. Around 21 weeks I had these horrible pains and they were constant and strong and the doctor at the hospital said I was having contractions and at only 21 weeks they couldn't do anything but let nature take it's course, after about 3 hours they finally stopped. I found out Cory and I were expecting a precious baby boy. WE decided to name him Kyler because it meant little warrior and he was fighting to stay with us. I was about 7 months pregnant and found out my abruption was healing and my OB said she has never seen that happen. On August 4th I was induced and after 24 hours an emergency c-section later 10:31 a.m. at 8 pounds 4 ounces Kyler was brought into this world. He is truly my gift from god he wasn't suppose to be here but he fought through and I couldn't be happier. Cory and I got back together when I was about 6 1/2 months pregnant and have been together 2 1/2 years and have a great relationship. Our son is a happy, active 1 year old and the joy of our lives. If you have similar problems I'm always here to help.

Krista