Dealing with a miscarriage can be devastating. While many may pass off a miscarriage as a pregnancy that "just wasn't meant to be", these words rarely help to relieve your grief. Although a miscarriage can be an isolating experience, it doesn't have to be. Women who are or who have previously dealt with a miscarriage are often a great resource to those currently suffering from a pregnancy loss. Share your words with us and share your support with other women.
I just had a miscarriage and as you can imagine the feeling of complete loss is overwhelming. I'm not sure how to deal with my or my husbandís grief. All I wanted for Christmas was to be pregnant. I feel it is my fault in a way because I just signed a job contract and that very same day found out I was pregnant. I was so worried about how it would affect my job and a little upset about the pregnancy.
Now I would give anything to take away that feeling just to have my baby back.
Joy and happiness only lasted for 1 week....My husband and I married for almost a year and we have been trying for a baby but no positive response. We finally went to see a gyno and did a scan on my uterus. He found that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS), which means all this while I have not been able to ovulate. He then prescribed me fertility pills called Clomid to try for a cycle. When it was about the time that I would expect my period to come, it didn't happen. I was getting a bit anxious but kept myself calm enough to wait for a week then go for the pregnancy test.
One week passed and my period hasn't come, my husband bought me a home pregnancy test kit and I did it first thing in the next morning. It turned out to be a positive!! We were both so happy and speechless. Immediately I made an appointment to see my gyno again to confirm on the test. As it was at the early stage, my gyno had to test it twice before he confirmed the result. We were both so excited that we were finally going to have a baby. A few days later, I had slight spotting followed by mild bleeding with mild cramps.
I was told that it's a common sign due to the expansion of the uterus. Later in the afternoon, my cramps got worse and I rushed to my gyno. He did a scan but found no sign of embryo. He then gave me injection and some pills to take. But the next day morning, my cramps were uncontrollable; I had to see my gyno again. He did another scan and confirmed that it was a miscarriage. We were both devastated. Our dream and future plan for the baby were all in the way but now we have to digest the sadness and disappointment.
I had discharged of a big blood clot, which I believe was the embryo. When I looked at it, my heart shattered. It's been a week plus now after my miscarriage but my heart is still hanging in the air. Emotionally I was not stable but luckily my husband has been very supportive and encourages me to try again. Well, we will not give up as I am going to see my gyno again next week for a check up. Hopefully my condition is in good enough state so that we can start trying again. Wish us luck!!
My 12th miscarriageIt is odd the peace that I feel since finding this web site and knowing I'm not alone. Tomorrow will be 8 weeks since I lost my 12th baby. I was 10 weeks along and although we knew that the risk was there to miscarry, I felt a strange attachment to this pregnancy and I fought so hard to keep it. I started bleeding and cramping and knew that it wasn't good. Got to the hospital only to find out that I needed to have a d & c because the baby didn't have a heartbeat.
I was simply devastated...and ever since then I just can't move on. I do have a son who is 5 and we had to tell him that our baby had gone to heaven - It was awful.... Somehow I can't help but feel like I have lost a part of me with each loss, but I have to find the strength to try again-somehow....
Madisyn ElizabethMy Husband and I became pregnant in February 2006. This was the first for both of us and we could not have been more excited. We knew we had a very exciting year a head of us. We were getting married in June, after 7 long years of being together and we were about to have a baby in November. Life could't get any better. The months went on and we got married. Now all we had to look forward to was our little baby.
We found out in July that we were going to have a baby girl. My husband was so excited. All he wanted was a little girl. At that point everything was going great. She was developing the way she should be, her heart was perfect. So a couple more month went by and we decided that we were going to do a 3d/4d ultrasound. We heard that you could really tell what the baby looks like. So we went in September and had one done. Wow, was she beautiful. She was so perfect in every way. I was so glad that we decided to do that. At that point the pregnancy was perfect.
By the time October rolled around things weren't going as perfectly as the other months. I went to my scheduled pre-natal visit on a Monday night. The doctor started the check up like every other one, by listening to her heart. He noticed that she has a heart arrhythmia. Her heart was skipping a beat. So he finished the examine and sent me to the hospital to be put on a fetal heart monitor. I was at the hospital for 3 1/2 hours before the told me that they don't know what is causing the arrhythmia. They scheduled me for an ultrasound and told me that I would have to go to non-stress test twice a week to be monitored. I went to the ultrasound and they didn't find anything. they told me that a lot of fetus develop an arrhythmia but it will most likely clear up when the baby is born. So I went to my non-stress test every week.
I went to my non-stress test on Friday, November 10th, 2006. I was 38 weeks pregnant that day. My non stress test went perfectly. Madisyn was moving and a heart beat was ok. It still had the arrhythmia, but it wasn't as bad. So thought that it was correcting itself. The next day, Saturday, I woke up feeling funny. I didn't think anything of it. I was 38 weeks pregnant, I knew I wasn't going to feel good. As the day went I wasn't feeling the baby move as much. I decided to lay on my left side and see if she would move. She did, so I wasn't worried. Around 7 o'clock I started getting sick. I was throwing up non stop. I was having pains in my stomach that just would not go away. My husband call the on call doctor. The doctor said don't worry about it. I was the 3rd person to call in today, he said it was just a stomach virus. About an hour later I was still having pains. I went to the bathroom to throw up again. This time when I threw up I had a gush of vaginal blood. It didn't stop coming. So my husband and I went to the hospital.
By the time we got to the hospital I had lost so much blood. They sent me straight to labor and delivery. The put me a fetal heart monitor. They couldn't find Madisyn heart beat. Because I had lost so much blood they had to do an emergency c-section. They delivered Madisyn Elizabeth at 8:47 p.m.. She was 6lb 12 ounces. She was perfect in every way. The doctor had told my husband that the reason we lost our daughter was because I had suffered a complete placental abruption. They said that it had happened earlier in day. They told us that there would have been no way of detecting this. They then told him that we had come just in time because my blood count was extremely low. If we would have waited any longer, my husband would have lost me as well.
It hurts us to not have her here with us. We had her nursery done, her cloths washed and we had so much we wanted to do with her. I know there is a reason that god took her from us. I am a firm believer in the saying ";everything happens for a reason". I know she is in a much better place. She is our little guardian angel watching over us. She will always be our little girl...
You came; you were; you said goodbye...
I did not get to hear you cry,
Nor know the colour of your hair.
The pain is just so hard to bear.
My empty womb cries tears of red.
A gaping hole left there instead.
My broken heart will never mend;
Our new found joy brought to an end.
I loved you more than I can say.
Our souls entwined forever to stay.
Your life within mine somehow did sever -
Your memory will lie with me forever...
Tried to conceive our second child for 18 months - our first positive pregnancy test and now we are left broken and devastated.
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