Dealing with a miscarriage can be devastating. While many may pass off a miscarriage as a pregnancy that "just wasn't meant to be", these words rarely help to relieve your grief. Although a miscarriage can be an isolating experience, it doesn't have to be. Women who are or who have previously dealt with a miscarriage are often a great resource to those currently suffering from a pregnancy loss. Share your words with us and share your support with other women.
expecting the unexpected
i am 18 years old and im a senior in highschool. i started to date the most amazing guy in september of 2011. we were dating for 4 months before i found out i was pregnant. even though hes 16, we were really exicted to have this baby. we couldnt wait to be parents. i was about a month into my pregnancy when my school decided that a new and fun game was to go around baby checking people. which means to walk up to a girl and punch them in the stomach. this happened to me twice. and of course i was freaking out. ive had bleeding so i assumed the worse, but im still showing all signs of being pregnant. my questions are: did God answer my crying prayers to let my child live, or am i going crazy inside?
Payten.. forever my angle babyI was 8 weeks and a day pregnant when i started spotting. I didnt think of anything at first till i went on the computer and wrote on my yahoo a question remarking my light brown discharge. Everyone said for me to go get checked out. i was scared so i didnt get checked out till i was 9 weeks pregnant. The spotting had gotten worse, it was now a light pink. I went to the hospitial twice but my mom didnt want to stay so we ended up going home both times. I then went to the after hours clinic the doctor there said everything looked fine, that my cervix was closed very tight and that ment there was no chance of a misscariage. They were wrong.... i went to the hospitial at 9 weeks and 4 days pregnant with dark-bright red spotting. the doctor i had made me very uncomfortable. he wouldnt tell me anything, he had this worried face on so i asked him what was going on and he said he didnt know. I then asked if i was misscarrying he said he didnt know for sure but it almost looks that way. I went through 3 ultrasounds two belly ones and one iner utern ultrasound. After my vaginal ultrasound i looked at the screen and seen my baby. When i seen my baby i was so happy! all i could do was smile. At that moment well looking at my baby on the ultrasound pictures the tech had taken i named my baby Payten.
I waited 12 hours to find out for a doctor that my baby had passed away. I remember the words that he spoke clearly as if he just told me. he was a very heartless man. His words were "No, your pregnancy is over. The baby is dead." The doctor then said that he suppects that the baby was fighting for its life for 3 weeks and had died in around that week because my hcg levels were high 4 days ago at 11 thousand and it was 7 thousand when they got the test results back from the test they did that night. I cried and i cried.. i just couldnt stop. I texted my boyfriend and he just couldnt believe it. He didnt want this pregnancy to keep going from the start but about a week ago he started to come around. He was in total shock. I was in shock and denial.
It has been a week to the day since i found out my baby.. baby payten had passed away and its been 6 days since i birthed my baby. It has been tramatizing. I now have a big fear of being around people. i cant go in hallways at school full of people. i cant have people touch me even if its just a little tap well walking past me. im depressed all the time. I want my baby back and i blame the death of my baby on myself.
On Febuary 1st 2012 i birthed Payten Moser. Payten came out of me not in pieces, but as the form of a baby. you could see the puple being formed, the fish tale, the legs and arms forming, the alian head and the place where the heart once beated.
November 24th 2011 - Febuary 1st 2012 mommy loves you forever. ill be singing our bed time song always baby. xoxs
2 angelsMe and my partner have been together 3 years. I come off the pill at the begining of January 2011, it took us till may to get pregnant. We were overjoyed. Bought mum to be signs for the car and everthing. The day of the first scan we went and saw our baby kicking on the screen. Then the doctor had some bad news, our baby didnt have a skull. It hadnt formed for some reason. We were devestated. We were told the baby isnt developing at all. The brain would start to swell and it wouldnt survive. Termination was the only option. I sunk into deep depression. As the time came for the termination i was 16 weeks and 4 days. My little boy was so tiny. After that nothing could lift my spirits, i turned to drinking everynight. I blamed my partner and he blamed me. It was horrible, all around me my friends were having babies, why not me? I found it extremley hard to deal with. Later in the year 3 months after i lost my boy i found out i was pregant again. I was completley shell shocked. Sadly on boxing day when i was 6 weeks i fell down the stairs. I woke up in the morning to blood. I crumbled. I phoned the hospital and they said it sounded like a misscarriage. I was utterly crushed, so was my partner. I took a pregnancy test a few weeks later and a negative sign confirmed our loss. I have come to terms with our loss but have bad days. We are in the process of moving house shortly so i am hoping for a fresh start in all aspects. I just want a healthy successfull pregnancy, i have my fingers crossed for a happy future. Anyone else with a similar story would be a very big help as i havent really spoke to people about it x
Forever My Angleme and my boyfriend have been dating for 10mths when we found out tht we would be having a baby to happy...we went to every appointment... everything was good baby was growing right the weight was right heart rate was a lil slow but was said to b fine for lil boy :) so bout week 32 i start gaining a lot weight blood pressure was high check in w/ my midwife everything was fine but to be safe lets do two weeks of bed rest on my left side two weeks came and went weight went down but blood pressure still high told me friday tht on monday i would be getting induce. so me n my boyfriend to happy over the birth of our 1st son on monday but sunday night i just felt like something was wrong kept asking my boyfriend to check my belly to feel for Taylen heart beat he did said everything is fine ... sadly Monday morning came with so much heart break went to the Hp @ 6am check in they started looking for a beat but it was so low my baby kicked once.. they started pushing trying to get a strong one bout a hr went by and nothing my dr was called she tried still nothing boyfriend was get mad at 7.45am my son passed away due to his cord getting wrapped around his neck 3 tight...talk bout sad..went 9mths to need up w/ a room full of baby stuff empty arms and a broken heart but even thou it was a sad time we still got to have more than must ppl get we got to see tht he look like me and his dad got to play with his hands and feet was it a great lost yes it broke mine and my family hearts but we are making and i will always have my son looking over me I believe God does not give us anything we cant handle :) I Love You Taylen for ever my Angle
I THOUGHT I LOVED HIMMY NAME IS SHAWNNA . I WAS WITH A BOY FOR ABOUT 4 YEARS . HE WAS MY EVERYTHING .. WE HAD SEX LIKE AFTER 6 MONTHS NEVER USED ANYTHING TO PROTECT OUR SELFS. SO IN MAY WE BROKE UP BUT I LOVED HIM SO MUCH I STILL WAS HAVIN SEX WITH HIM SO HE CAN STILL WANT TO TALK TO ME . IN AUG. I GOT PREGANT AND I TOLD HIM AND HE ANSWER WAS TO GET A ABORTION HE AINT READY AND HE DONT WANT NO KIDS RIGHT NOW, I LET HIM TALK ME INTO GETTIN THE ABORTION . ND I STILL THINK ABOUT IT . LIKE HOW SOMEONE U LOVE SAY GET RID OF YA CHILD THAT FAST . SMH I STILL THINK ABOUT THE MONTHS I WOULDA BEEN THA NAME AND HOW THE CHILD WOULDA LOOKED . SO LADIES IF YOU THINK THAT YOU READY FOR A KID DONT LET HIM TELL U WHAT TO DO. TO THIS DAY IM STILL STUPID BECAUSE I MISS WITH HIM . BUT I STILL DONT WANT TO LEAVE THE PAST ALOINE . I FEEL LIKE HE IS THE ONE FOR ME BUT HE JUST DONT KNOW WHAT HE WANST RIGHT NOW . AND I WANNA STAY IN THE PICTURE SO WHEN HE COMES WITH HIS RIGHT MIND . IM GOING TO BE THE GIRL THAT HE WANST TO BE WITH .
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